Refined, Not Defined: Living in Spite of Trauma
I sat down with Elena on Shift to talk about a hard truth: your past will either define you or refine you. It won’t do both. That fork in the road shows up for all of us—whether your storm was childhood abuse, combat, law enforcement, a business collapse, or a marriage that blew apart. The choice is the same: stay stuck in the story, or use it to build the life you were meant to live.
The day the daffodils bloomed
In 2008, I stepped over a patch of daffodils by my writing shed in Texas and thought, they’re beautiful. In an instant, my mind unlocked years of childhood abuse at the hands of the people who raised me. Memories that had lived like single, silent frames suddenly spooled into a full film. For seven years it played on loop.
Much later I learned I’m Indigenous Australian. My family line had been pulled into government policies that removed Aboriginal children and placed them with European families. That discovery explained a lot. It didn’t erase anything, but it gave context to a life that had felt dislocated for a long time.
From “John 1.0” to “John 2.0”
Recall didn’t make me the “old me” again. It forced a new one. The high-functioning, globe-trotting consultant (“John 1.0”) fell apart. In his place, a quieter man showed up—one who wrote poetry, smoked a cigar on the back porch, and finally started living from the inside out. I had to ask—often for the first time—basic human questions:
What do I like?
What brings me joy?
What is permissible, healthy, and true?
When you grow up in chaos, you’re conditioned to mirror other people’s wants. Reclaiming your own takes time. It’s also worth every minute.
Men, midlife, and the shame trap
In my experience, many men get recall between 35–45. We’re trained to be protectors; the shame of not being able to protect your four-year-old self can be crushing. That shame keeps too many silent for too long. If that’s you, hear me: speaking up isn’t weakness—it’s courage. It’s the first step toward becoming the man you were supposed to be.
What workplaces can actually do
I work with HR teams, not to slap labels on people, but to build self-advocacy. Recovery is inside work. Organizations can help when they create room for honest conversations and practical support without turning everything into performance or politics. Real care looks like flexible policies, trauma-informed leadership, and clear pathways to resources—not buzzwords.
Tools over theory: small shifts that stick
I spent 15 years (and too much money) figuring out what actually helps. To spare others that grind, we built The Phoenix Collective and the MindFire Challenge—simple, structured tools for real change. My favorite analogy is aviation: get two degrees off course at takeoff and you’ll miss your destination by miles. The fix isn’t drama. It’s two degrees back—small things, consistently, over time.
A front-door plan (free, simple, effective)
Start here for two weeks and write down what you notice:
Sleep: same bedtime and wake time, daily.
Screens: no blue light 1–2 hours before bed.
Breakfast: high protein + healthy fat; avoid dyes and processed foods.
Sugar: pull it way back. (Yes, it’s addictive.)
Light: 20 minutes of morning sun.
Cold: finish showers cool; you’ll get most of the benefits of a plunge.
Movement: 30 minutes of walking, five days a week.
Media diet: stop doom-scrolling; guard what you watch and listen to.
Will these eight steps “fix” trauma? No. But they calm the body, steady the mind, and give you momentum for the deeper work.
The advocacy: Give Them A Voice
Through Give Them A Voice Foundation, our focus spans human trafficking (labor, war, sex) and post-traumatic stress. It’s dark, often dangerous work. We’ve liaised with government, helped survivors find safety, and gathered testimony. Along the way we created Keeping Kids Safe, a plain-English guide for spotting risks and protecting your family. (If you want it, reach out. I’m happy to share.)
Two convictions carry me:
Second chances are sacred. The grace someone gave me, I want to give away.
Fraud has no place in this space. If the work isn’t protecting people, it’s theater.
SISU: relentless resilience
My doctorate is in theology; I joke it’s in “turning crap into fertilizer.” The Finnish word SISU captures the heart of that work: white-knuckled courage in the face of overwhelming odds. They did this to me, but they don’t get to define me. My life will be brilliant, love-filled, and free—because they tried to take it.
That’s what I want for you, too.
Where to start
If you’re ready for simple structure and support, join the MindFire Challenge through my site. It’s free, and it’s the best “two degrees back” I know.
If your company wants to build trauma-aware, practical support for employees, let’s talk.
If you’re a survivor or the friend of one: you are not alone. Start with the front-door plan above. Then keep going.
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